Blackveilbridanin

I'm sitting in my room, looking in the mirror, for the first time in a while. My friends brought me to have a very low-self confidense scale thing today, and frankly I'm quite dissapointed in them. I am a girl, that means as stone cold as I may seem, I do have feelings and they can be hurt.
Betrayal. That's how I feel. I know it's just eyebrows, but seriously, it hurts. Alot.
My dear friends, let me put this in to perspective for you.
1) I do not ABSOULETLY do not talk about you behind your back, and I expect the likewise from you.
2) Joking is okay, but enough is enough, don't joke when you know how you would feel if I did it to you.
3) I may be a smart-tail, sarcastic ,and put off a Idon'tcarewhatyousayaboutme type of mood kind of girl at school, but I do care about what my FRIENDS think of me, more than most of anything else.
4) I have a heart and a soul, just like I have two eyes and two ears (and all other things I need to survive).
5) I have major selfestem issues, they've gotten better, but I'm still very insecure no matter how loud and outgoing I am.
6)No matter what you say, it matters to me. Every 'whatever' and 'get over your self ' I get from you people, I take hard.
7) I get quiet, and just because I get quiet doesn't mean I'm mad.
8) I am absouletly positively not stupid. I am smarter than some, but duller than others. Like you, and everyone else I fail a few tests and may not get an answer right, but I am not stupid, or anything close to it.
9) on the last subject, you can joke about people being retartd and not mean it and they know you don't mean it, but each and every one of us put that one time you said 'God, insertnamehere, you're such a retard.' in the back of our mind and remember it even though we don't mean to.
10) I AM human, I do make mistakes, but I hope you forgive me for what stupid things I have done, just as quickly as I forgive you. We all mess up.
11) I am going to be there for you, at all times. Call me, text me, anything, I will be there. I will always be a shoulder to cry on and a relationship advice giver, but after so long, I will be a little bit toughe because self0ssorrow might as well as be a deadly sin. I want you to be ther for me, like I am there for you.
12) This is not a diva fit, meerly what I think you should know.
13)You people, have the chance of killing me, your opinion means more than anything to me. I would change how that is for me, but I can't.
14) I love you guys more than anything, somedays I just need some love back.
Now that I'm done with that, I'd like to say I feel alot better now that you know these things, but I don't. Why? Because I know you'll read this post and be like 'she's just on her period' or 'she's just pissed off' or 'I don't even really care' and such. I had to put it out there, and I'm sorry I bored you with my seriousness and not my usual bubly posts.
Love,
Olivia Maiden Beirsack <666